6 Jan 2014
RUNNING: NEW YEARS RUN ( THE DISASTER)
Yesterday I ran the Genneperparken newyears-run. It was only 8 kilometers, ( I thought) nothing to worry about. I ran 9 kilometers several times before this one, so why should I worry about an easy 8. It was a nice sunny day, not a lot wind, around 7 degrees ( Celsius ). OK, the main problem was that the run started at 11:45 , which means it was in the morning. And as I very well know, morning runs aren't my best.. actually they are my worst. I go slow, my legs feel like brigs and where I can run 9 kilometer in the evening I can't run a 5K in the morning. I am still trying to figure out what the cause is, I must do something wrong.
Besides that little problem there wasn't any. I couldn't be trained better. During the run my thoughts changed, the morning-issue seemed to be a lot BIGGER than I thought it was. It felt like my legs didn't want to go further and it got worse. With every step a took it felt like someone stabbed a knife in my shin, clearly I remembered last year when I couldn't run for weeks because of my (f*cking) leg. Like the months of physiotherapy disappeared. To make it even worse my right minimus (the smallest toe) began to hurt like it was broken. I told my friend to go further and the next 5 kilometers I ran like an old granny, bur I didn't stop! Even when I had to go trough fire, or when my toe was really broken I wouldn't stop. I was determined to finish without walking. In the end it may seems like it was brave but it was above all stupid. I kept my proud and forgot the pleasure. I couldn't think about anything else, I didn't see the beautiful nature my friend described and I also didn't felt the runners flow.. she did, and it was amazing.
So.. I didn't really enjoyed the run. I can cry of disappointment, maybe running isn't my destiny. But I'll not give up. The running program for a half marathon I planned to start today is reschedule for next week, I made an appointment with the physiotherapist at the gym and an appointment to make personal supportive soles for in my shoes and running-shoes.
And now, I can't wait till I can run without pain and the program for the half-marathon starts. Bring it on!